It can be immobilizing. Crippling. It can make my heart pound so hard I can feel it thud against my chest. It can make my mind fill with so much doubt I begin to second-guess my decisions.
Then the questions start to come:
Am I a good writer?
Can I handle the critiques?
Will people discover our true identities?
Is it worth the risk?
Can I truly help anyone?
After the butterflies that took flight in my stomach finally calmed down enough for me to think rationally again, I remember the whys of my journey down this path:
I’m not out to become a best-selling author.
I’m not seeking rave reviews and have tough-ish skin.
I did the best I could to remain anonymous.
It is absolutely worth the risk and Devin agrees with me.
I feel I can help not just one person but maybe even two…or ten…or more!
And so, I face my fears. I will not run.
I finally stopped editing my book. I stopped procrastinating.
I accepted that there may be typos, dropped words, and goodness knows what other mistakes I made, but I know I did my best, my heart is in the right place, and Steps Along My Shore is finally ready to be released out into the world.
My baby is ready to walk on her own.
I couldn’t have done this without the help of my mentor, Bryan. My apologies to you now, Bryan…those typos that are in the final copy were not there when you read it. Those pages were added in long after you read it. Don’t blame him, folks.
Another round of thank you’s to Robyn and Donna. Your honest feedback helped me shape this final release into much better shape than when you first laid your eyes on it and for that I’m eternally grateful. I couldn’t have done it without you. Good critique partners are hard to find. I’m glad I had you both. I may need you next year for the sequel…keep your calendars open!
That’s it, folks. No tour. You won’t see me blog-hopping or see the book in your feed. I figure those who need the book will find it. As the saying goes, If God brings you to it, He’ll lead you through it.
Have you ever been so fearful you almost didn’t do something? How did you overcome it?