Monday, November 9, 2015

And She's Back!

*From someplace on Facebook*


The past week has been one filled with lots of self-reflection. I can happily say that I’m in a much better place than I was just a week ago. I’ve found my serenity again. I think I needed to be on that slippery slope for a bit to appreciate just how far I’ve come and to recognize my own stagnation.


Helping others during their time of need is great for me. It lifts my spirits and feeds my soul. But it doesn’t keep me focused on myself and if I’m not focused on myself, at least part of the time, I can slide back into dark places and bad habits. And, yes, perhaps even addiction.

So, I'm thankful for that scary place I was in because it brought me to where I am today:

from Google images

I'm more aware of what I have than what I don't have…or what I think I need I'm in need of. And diving back into my recovery books has helped me see that again. It's like a crack on the head with a hammer that I needed. 

But most of all, I'm thankful to all of you. Your kind words and support last week meant the world. Really. I came back and read them several times and was genuinely touched by how caring all of you are. Thank you! You guys are the best!


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  1. Glad you are no longer in a scary place! It does take seeing the negative to appreciate the positive. Keep focused enough on you to keep yourself on the right path.

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    1. It's good to be on the right path again, Alex. To have that serenity again. Sure, I have moments where chaos creeps in along the edges but I'm able to turn to my handy dandy toolbox again rather than plummet into darkness. And that's much better than before.

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  2. Wonderful! Old habits are hard to break or make go away. We have to find new ones, more constructive ones, to take their place.

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    1. Spot on, Diane. I think that's what the problem was. I became complacent where I was. Just floated along and when the crap hit the fan, I wasn't prepared mentally for it all.

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    1. Thanks, JoJo! I like being in this mental place much better :)

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  4. Very cool, here to many more good days ahead. Keep getting stronger. You rock.

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    1. Thank you, Ivy. And thank you for all the little boosts through out the week. YOU ROCK, my friend!!

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    2. I'm always here for anything you need.

      Hugs & Bugs,
      -- Me

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  5. So you sat and stared at yourself in the mirror all day? They have a word for those types of people lol

    Good you got back on track. The bad crap really can show the good.

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    1. Well, you know, when you're hot, you're hot. I just can't help but stare at my reflection. ha!

      Yeah, seeing the dark can really show us the light. Kinda like Star Wars or at least that's what my hubby says.

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  6. YAY! Welcome back, Elsie! Glad to hear you're in a better headspace now!

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    1. Thanks, Debra! It's so good to be back. Real good!

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  7. That is so true, sometimes it takes going into the dark places to help us appreciate the things we do have. Glad to hear you've found a place of serenity!

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  8. This is awesome to hear! But just you wait until I return my notes on your self help book. So enjoy this nice feeling while it lasts, before I absolutely shatter your world!

    (Kidding, I haven't found squat) :)

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    1. And then my stomach dropped…oh, okay, never mind. I can breath again. Panic attack stopped dead in its tracks.

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  9. Hi Elisie - the blogging fraternity is a great supporter - I used to feel at least I was going to get support here in the blogosphere - helped enormously. You too have found that .. and good for you for working on what you need to do - remembering you ... take care and all the best - Hilary

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    1. It really is such a wonderful place to find support and solace. Even when people haven't been through what I've been through, they still find such kind words and pearls of wisdom to share. I'm truly blessed to call them friends. Thank you for your kinds words. They really helped.

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  10. Great that you're in a better place this week! Keep it up. :D

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    1. Thanks, Deborah. I've been staying on top of my reading and it's been doing wonders for me :)

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  11. I'm sorry that I missed your post last week but so glad to read that you are feeling so much better now. And just reading this helped me as I've been stagnating a bit and needed the reminder that, as the top pic says, there is no turning back.

    Take care, Elsie!

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    1. Sometimes it's easy to become stagnant, especially when things appear to be going so well for us. I'm glad I was able to serve as a simple reminder. Be well!

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  12. Well, you do need the dark to have the light.
    Or so it's said.

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    1. That sounds an awful lot like Star Wars, is it? Is it? Hubby says he doesn't think so but I don't know…sounds Star Wars to me.

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  13. I can feel the lightness in this post compared with your one last week. If we don't experience that walk through the dark, we don't fully appreciate the gift and wonder of light! It's awesome to see you in a better place! Take care, Elsie!

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    1. Yeah, last week's post was pretty heavy. I'm grateful to be in a much healthier, brighter place but also glad I went through what I did so I can appreciate where I am now. Thank you so much for your kind words last week. They helped so much. Be well!

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  14. Glad you re-found your happy place. Now you can work on me...

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    1. Oh no, I'm sorry to hear you're not in a happy place. Sending positive vibes your way, Chris.

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  15. I can relate to this.

    Sometimes we have to hit a wall before we start looking for a door.

    Arlee Bird
    Tossing It Out

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    1. I love that saying, Arlee. Thanks for sharing it with me! Consider it stolen!

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    2. Feel free to use it since I shared it with you :)

      Hope you'll stop by my Wednesday blog post to support Guilie's guest post.

      Arlee Bird
      Tossing It Out

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    3. Thanks, Arlee. I just came back from visiting. What a great photo she has! Adorable!

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  16. Woohoo! So glad you're feeling better and loved by us. Because you're amazing and we love you.

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  17. I'm so glad that you're in a better place, but I had no doubt you'd get there!! We are a pretty awesome support team though, right? ? ;) hehe

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    1. You guys are an awesome support team. I really couldn't have asked for better. My readers rock!

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  18. Welcome back! You know how valuable you are, right? Plus, look at the bright side.
    You could be me.
    o_O

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    1. It's good to be back in the right state of mind again. Hey, being you isn't so bad, you're a great guy!

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  19. I am thankful you are back as you are missed when you are not around, just saying.

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    1. Well, I've been around, just not in the right mind-set ;p

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  20. Good to see you Elsie ~ Nice that you have found serenity again ~ Take care dear ~

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    1. Thanks, Grace. Good to be around and happy and serene again. Be well, my friend!

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  21. I'm so glad you found your way back. Life will always be a struggle, but you shall prevail!

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    1. Thanks, Robin. Me too. As long as we pick ourselves back up and learn along the way, it's all worth it. :)

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  22. Hi Elsie,

    Well done and embrace the serenity. Help each other, we help ourselves. Focus on that positive road ahead, my friend.

    Gary :)

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    1. Hi Gary! I hope you're doing well these days. Keeping my mind on the positive things vs. the negative really does help. Some days it can be a bit harder than others but a good mental kick and I get back on track.

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  23. Very true Elsie! What we sense and seen as bad, doesn’t really matter when we grow up to learn or experience what they are really. Life is illusion until we explore on own and being aware keep clear our path. Glad the week has been excellent for you and make feel deserve.

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    1. I agree with that very much, Jeevan. I think we must live our own experiences. And even when those are difficult, we need to find the positive in them, no matter how small they may seem. Eventually, when we find positive in everything around us, it gets easier to get out of the muck when it strikes.

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