Tuesday, November 27, 2012

How Do You Unplant A Seed?


How do you unplant a seed?  One that has already grown roots into well-nurtured grounds?  The roots extend so deeply that the plant sprouts it’s festering, annoying twigs and twines in the cracks and crevices of the most dark and unexpected places.  Loving care to the topsoil has been applied.  It’s been cultivated and tilled.  It’s even begun to show signs of new life as flowers of beautiful new color begin to bloom.  Yet, unexpectedly and without warning, up springs the weeds of doubt and fear.  Strangling the flowers, bringing the flowers of hope to their knees.  Causing them to cry out in pain, causing their heartbeat to flutter ceaselessly.  Tears of panic dampen the soil giving the weeds a chance to spread and grow.  Relational PTSD has left its mark on the flower’s leaves.  The hurtful words will not darken the sky. The unknowns on the screen will not cause old fears.  The flowers reach for the sun, breaking the hold of the trigger.  Blooming they become stronger, prettier, healthier than ever before.

November 26, 2012.  Trigger. Prompted from argument/text from guy crossing boundaries

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(As always, I understand it can be difficult to find the right words to comment on a post like this, no worries.)

47 comments:

  1. Well you can't really unplant a seed but you can clip the weeds to help cultivate a beautiful flower. Or, if it can't be saved, you can clip the flower. It can be difficult to comment on something like this, but I'm not bad at extending a metaphor.

    I just hope you're okay.

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    1. You extended that metaphor beautifully, Mark. I'm very impressed! I'm doing very, very well. I wrote this smack dab in the middle of a trigger and was able to overcome the trigger through writing. My flower is still standing tall and proud!

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  2. Even though this dealt with pain, it was still very beautiful and moving. It's a wonderful way to work through pain in hopes of moving forward. Hugs :)

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    1. Thank you Kianwi. I work through my triggers by doing various things, one of which is writing. Sometimes I can publish what I write, sometimes I can't. Sometimes you guys will wish I hadn't because it's so venty and whiney LOL

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  3. Love this although I hate the amount of pain you've been through Elsie. Mark's comment is beautiful and so damn true in my opinion. I wish I had something valuable to say Elsie to make you feel better but I can't, I just know that I'm here for you as are all of us.

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    1. Just stopping by is valuable, Matthew. Like I said, it's hard to find the words for stuff like this, there are no "right" words. I appreciate knowing you read my post and understand. Thank you so very much!!

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  4. a very thoughtful and poetical metaphor, Elsie

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    1. Thank you, Dezzy. It helped ground me yesterday and bring me back to the here and now.

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  5. Triggers suck. I have them too. Not to the extent you do of course, but they exist and I hate them b/c they always set me back. Then I end up worrying needlessly for days.

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    1. I hate knowing you still have triggers, JoJo. I haven't had a trigger in so long when it snuck up on me it really surprised me. It was my second one this week. The important thing is I understand the cause of it and Devin and I are communicating about it so hopefully it will pass soon. I hope yours don't rear their ugly head anytime soon. Hugs.

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    2. It's hard not to, being back in my hometown area, surrounded by his exes....

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  6. One day there will be an end to these things in your life and God willing that time will be soon.

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    1. I think this will pass as the days on the calendar flip. I need to reach into my toolbox and make good use of my tools so they don't get the best of me. This Too Shall Pass.

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  7. Yeah such seeds that won't piss the hell off suck big time, that I know. But one way to get rid of them, is to be like the cat. Dig them all up, work up a nice big movement and shit on them, then bury them there and let them dwell in shit haha

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    1. Well, I can finally agree with cat on one part - dig them all up, but shitting on them? I don't know...that's a bit crass, even for this NYer. Maybe burning them would be better? LOL

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    2. LOL yeah easier to do, but by doing it, it helps the cat save a pringle can or two.

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  8. Ok, it's one thing to include your little warnings on your posts about how long they are, but to post back to back in one day? Too much! lol Just kidding!

    Don't take the cat's advice by the way. Doesn't he know that shit acts as a fertilizer?

    You can't unplant the seed but you can nurture the flower and keep it healthy, pull the weeds around it and give it a nice fertile plot of soil for it to blossom.

    Even though the roots may be tainted, the end result is a beautiful flower, full of life and color. Remember that, Elsie. We all have planted bad seeds at one time or another, but none of that matters as long as the flower blooms!

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    1. Hey! It's my blog and if I want to post five more times in one day, I will dammit! LOL

      Yeah, I was thinking the same thing about spreading fertilizer. What can we expect from the cat? He likes to poo in a Pringles can and fling it at people.

      You're right, I may not be able to unplant the seed but I can keep nurturing the flower, tilling the soil, feeding it and keeping it healthy and make sure it's happy and healthy.

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  9. I think "how do you unplant the seed" is the wrong question, though this is probably the best metaphor I've heard in a while.

    Very few planted seeds will grow unattended. From weeds to careless feet, they face too many challenges to make it on their own. The more care they are given, the more likely they are too reach maturity and bear fruit. And some, even with great care, simply can't overcome the world around them.

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    1. Oooh, Monkey, that means you must have the "right" question in mind...what is it? =)

      I agree, that's why I'm going to keep on tending to the seed, the flowers, to make sure they continue to grow, continue to stay healthy and if those pesky weeds come creeping back in, I'll be there to yank them out with a vengeance, keeping my flowers beautiful. Just like they are meant to be!

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    2. The question is, how badly do you want the fruit. If it's worth the work, there is no need to unplant. If it's not worth it, walking away and leaving it untended will unplant it for you.

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    3. I want the fruit, Monkey. (As long as it's not grapefruit, that's just gross.) It's well worth whatever work I need to do to get that flower to bloom and grow and become healthy.

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  10. On a lighter note, Ray squealed like a pig (email and walking dead).....

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    1. ha ha ha!! Whatever you do..don't say anything on YOUR blog...I saw it on his computer!!!! You're so damn popular!!

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    2. Fran's a nosey git, he read your email over my shoulder last night. The dirtbag!!

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    3. He's just jealous of your painting skills, Ray!! ha ha ha!!

      (don't worry, Fran - I'm just kidding, don't sic Anne on me!!)

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  11. Yeah, it's hard to know what to say, so I'm going to send virtual (((hugs))), to let you know I care. (((hugs)))

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    1. Thank you, Cindy. Those virtual hugs mean more to me than words can ever express. I'm doing really well. When I wrote this I wasn't but the trigger past and I recovered quickly - it wasn't always like that, it used to take days, then hours, now...now they don't hit so hard. =)

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  12. Hi Elsie,
    I still lurk, and just wanted to say hey.

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    1. Barfly, good to see you hanging around...

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  13. I love the metaphorical nature of this post. Great blog!!

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    1. Thank you, Optimistic Existentialist. Thank you so much for stopping by!

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  14. Dig the f---ers up and poor poison on the ground!!! Nah just kidding that was mean, I am struggling to get out of my mean mood. Love you post Elsie janice from my new blog because of mean people erghh can't go there LOL if you need some one to mow the flowers down I will LOL

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    1. Janice!! I have been trying to find your blog!! I even put a note in my blog two posts ago for you to email me the name of it. I can't find you!!!

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  15. As a gardener, I can only say this: sometimes my plants get hit by bugs, or bad weather, or sometimes nothing at all and they get withered and yellow and sad. And at that moment, you can either just let them die, or you can care for them and nurse them back to health. And surprisingly, with a little love and care, your flowers are soon green, and blooming, and more beautiful than ever. They're amazingly resilient. I know it's hard work, but the beautiful end result is always worth it.

    Also, as a bonus, you can eat what you grow (I grow fruits and vegetables). No, wait. Don't eat your loved ones. :)

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    1. I love how you worded this, Bryan. This was a perfect analogy of what I was trying to explain. It would be so easy to just walk away and let all my hard work go to waste, but even if I did, the triggers would still remain, linger deep within. Instead, I will keep the garden cared for and well tended and see the fruits of my labor...but...no, my loved ones are not on the menu....yet.... bawwaahhh

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  16. Metaphorically speaking, dear Elsie, you've got some damn strong blooms going on over there in that garden of yours. And whatever your feeding them is keeping them resilient and strong.

    And...even in the light of some mighty trying pests, roaming freely through your garden, your blooms are willing to say "bring it" as they puff up their petals and tilt their head with indignation...they will not be broken, plucked or clipped...these babies are badass blooms, with attitude! You go, Blooms, you go!

    Great post - glad the "trigger" was weeded out and composted. ;)

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    1. The pests were quite trying that particular afternoon. I was able to swat them away, pull out the nasty weeds that had grown and make things much more manageable. The garden is pretty and blooming nicely once again!

      And, you're damn right - they are Badass Blooms =PPP

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    2. ha ha ha - I just had an image of you drawing them all tough like!

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  17. Well the only way I know to unplant a seed is to dig it up. I think you and Devin have done just that by all the work you have put into it. I also think that it takes a family to have a beautiful garden.

    Love,
    Meemaw

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    1. Meemaw!!! We have been working our butts off this weekend, Meemaw - trust me. The two of us have had a marathon communicating weekend =))

      Much love!!

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  18. ah Elsie you really write so well, really:)

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    1. Thank you so much, my dear Gloria =)))

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  19. I left an award for you on my blog today! :D

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  20. I am happy to read the signs of hope and faith in your journey Elsie ~ Be strong and always believe that goodness will prevail in the end ~

    Happy weekend ~

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    1. Thank you, Heaven. It is my faith in hope and happiness that keeps my head up =)

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