Sunday, October 28, 2012

Reminder of Being Powerless


As I sit and listen to the rain fall and wind howl outside my windows and wonder if, or more likely when, will my power go out as a result of Hurricane Sandy, I realize just how powerless a person can truly be at times.  I am reminded of the step work I have completed and the things we say at our S-Anon meetings and how they apply not just to our SA worlds but also to our everyday lives world too.

I have done all of the preparation work I can think of to ready for this storm.  I bought bottled water, canned goods, gasoline for the generator and made sure we had enough kerosene for the grill.  Yet, all the preparation won’t stop the storm, it will only make life a bit easier if we lose power or God forbid have some structural damage like we did last year when we had to replace the roof.

It made me realize, all of the preparation work I have done to ready myself for the storm of any slips or relapse.  I’m working the program, attending S-Anon, reaching out to my contacts, writing, trying to figure out a safety net for my daughter and me and always working on improving myself.  Yet, all the preparation won’t stop the slip or relapse, it will only make it easier for me to deal with if it happens.

I’m grateful I decided to stop being such a bullheaded, stubborn woman and admitted I couldn’t do it alone. I needed help.  I cannot believe how much I’ve gotten back from my S-Anon group, which is growing a little each week and it’s beautiful to watch.


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  1. Jesus luv, I hope this doesn't cause major damage for you. And I imagine with the changes in air pressure your Migraines are fierce and that will make things harder for you to bear.

    You know I will be praying for you and I'll send you an email here in a little while.

    Take care of yourself my friend.

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    1. Anne!! It's like Christmas Day when I see a comment from you - a gift - I miss you so much!! I hope you are doing well with yourself. My bestie!!!

      I am hoping right along with you. We have prepared as much as we can and it's out our hands now. We are four miles in so tidal flooding won't be a concern although we do have a problem with draining. They are worried about the trees because of the longevity of the storm and the way it's reversing it's winds right above us. But, there's not much we can do now.

      Oddly enough, my head is doing pretty good. Cool, huh? Mother Nature and Migraine Devil must have worked something out for me.

      I know you're probably wiped out - enjoy your family. I'll be here, send an email when you have time.

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    2. This is supposed to be a really wide storm too and it's scheduled to hit the NY area as well I think. I hope your family is okay as well.

      Hey, I tried autoposting but I screwed it up, so I do have an actual post up now!

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    3. It is a huge storm. Strange how it's structured too. I talked to my MIL yesterday and she wasn't phased one bit. She had zero supplies but at least she had a generator LOL I'm sure they are running around today trying to find stuff. Parts of LI is under an evac. order and she didn't even know. She's so crazy =P

      Okay, I saw your post and tried to get to it but it said it wasn't there. I'll go over now.

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    4. all this thing about the supplies and generators, ELsie, sounds like a WALKING DEAD adventure :) Hope it stays just that - a memorable adventure and not something really bad.

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    5. Pretty cool you mentioned Walking Dead, Dezz. We were just talking about how ready we are for it last night which resulted in us watching that (again) and Shaun of the Dead.

      (Don't say the zed word!) =PP

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    6. so how has it been so far? Did Sandy hit you already?

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    7. It's been hitting us since yesterday but it's so slow moving it's strange. The worst of it is now, I guess. We will be out of the thick of it around the morning some time and then the rain and wind should be gone Tuesday night.

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    8. It hasn't been bad at all... =))))

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    9. so, it's just stronger rain and a bit of crazy wind? Can you go outside or is the wind carrying things around?
      We've had a storm a month ago and my town was flooded in ten minutes, it was crazy. Our garage was flooded too in a matter of minutes. Fortunately I shut down the shutters at my balcony on time, otherwise I might've had a pool in my room now :)
      And earlier this summer, when I was coming back from Belgrade, there was such a horrid storm that the wind threw down a tree in front of my train :)

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    10. The winds were blowing at a steady 35 mph with gusts of 50-60 mph. We lost power last night just as my football game came on so I was pretty upset. I decided to go outside and see how bad it was in the neighborhood. Not wise but it was an adventure.

      We linked arms, braved the wind and rain and found we were flooded in. I don't know if we still are but the winds and rain are dying down as the storm shifts direction and heads towards the coast to make landfall up further up north. And, we now have power =)

      Mother Nature is crazy as she showed you!!

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    11. so you didn't have to put boards on your windows or something? How is your garden and yard? All in its place?
      We've had crazy weather here today too, the first flurry :) Rather crazy since I've been out in my hoodie this Saturday and now I had to put on my fancy winter jacket to go shopping today :) It's only 3*C .

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    12. We don't board up our windows for hurricanes. Some businesses do, or they put large Xs of tape across the large glass windows. Our windows are not large enough to board up and we have screens on them, except the front and that one has blinds.

      My garden is flooded and trashed. The flowers that were bloomed are gone. The yard is full of standing water. Hubby is going to try and leave the neighborhood now - we need something from a hardware store. He has a truck with a lift kit. So, I'll know it a minute if we are still flooded in.

      Yuck to the cold weather for you! My son is getting a blizzard as a result of this storm. He is five hours away, that's how far reaching this storm is. We just got an update that the storm got stronger as it moved inland.

      I'm glad you got to don your fancy jacket - soon, I'll be able to do the same but I'll be complaining about it LOL =)))

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  2. First off...you players on a bye in fantasy! Please adjust your lineup. You're in second place and have potential to win! Play like a winner!

    Secondly, stay safe over there!

    And last but not least, it's a beautiful thing watching your progress and how much stronger you continue to grow. You are an inspiration to many of us!

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    1. Actually, swap the first and second. Staying safe is more important that fantasy football!

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    2. Hey! I did adjust my guys as best I could! I did it the other day. It's not my fault I don't know what the hell I'm doing. I don't have whatever it was, a RB maybe? on reserve to swap out with...or something....I don't know what the hell I'm doing...I'm just impressed I'm in second place! I'm in like 9th place on Jax's league.

      I'm leaving the house one last time and then that's it until either Monday night or Tuesday. Depends on if we flood or have downed trees. It's the waiting that sucks LOL Good thing I don't Twitter much.

      "Wind is blowing"

      "Rain is falling"

      "Wind is still blowing"

      "Wow, is sure is windy"

      "Can't believe we still have power with all this wind"

      400 tweets later, but only six hours later,

      "It's so windy!"

      Anyway, thank you for the kind words, Dan. Sometimes I wonder how I can possibly be an inspiration. I'm such a pain in the ass!! LOL

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    3. Well, I'm trying to edit the stupid thing and I can't because I'm just that dumb!! Grrr!!

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    4. Might as well give up then. The rest of the league isn't bothering with it either!

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    5. So that's how I'm doing so well - fine by me!!

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  3. I really hope that nothing bad happens Elsie and that you and your family stay safe. Hurricanes are horrible and frightening and losing power sounds like no fun especially over Winter, make sure to let us know when everything had all died down.

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    1. I'm hoping right alone with you, Matthew. The one really cool thing about a hurricane is we all get to hang out as a family and drive each other nuts. Crazy, right? But, some of our favorite memories come from when we had no power after ice storms, tropical storms, etc. It's like nature forced us to hang out together. We tromped around the neighborhood during the day and played games by candlelight at night...then froze - that part did suck. LOL

      I'll due an update for sure!

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  4. Stay safe and hunker down!!! I'm not at all happy about the way the media is upsetting everyone. All the stores are sold out of everything. I went over to my mom's real early b/c I started seeing info that the storm was going to be here by this afternoon and now it's tomorrow again. Oy vey!!! Like you, I do not want to be w/o power!!!

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    1. They got it wrong here too, JoJo. They said it was supposed to hit us yesterday. Then they said today. Now it's this evening. They also said by the time it got to us it would be a nor'easter but it's still a hurricane. Last I heard it was because it slowed down to 10mph and it didn't shift. I finally stopped watching anything but my local news. I'm just glad I got my supplied uber early.

      I can't believe you guys are sold out already. It's so far away from you!! Good luck JoJo and keep me updated okay?

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  5. Never fear your one eye will scare the storm away. You can tame it with ease haha Being prepared does help a ton, but sadly as you say it doesn't stop the shit from coming due. Without power sucks big time, but at least you got a generator. I hope the damn thing doesn't come this way, that would suck big time at my bay. Oh and I will tell all what state you are in. ALASKA!!! Sorry, the cat had to tell, he couldn't keep such a secret.

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    1. Cat you're a disgrace for picking on Elsie today. You're going to hell too for telling everyone where she really lives. One day she'll come down from Alaska and visit you in Canada. And she'll bring a Polar Bear with her.

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    2. The one eye is no match for the eye of this storm it seems LOL The stupid power is starting to doing rolling brown outs. Gah! LOL Guess I need to go get my Peanut from her friend's house soon.

      I'm happy for my generator. It will keep the food viable. I hope it stays away from you too.

      Damn you for revealing my location, cat!!!

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    3. A lot of people thought you were at the South Pole. All those pictures of sunny beaches made that a natural assumption. I thought that myself for a while. Imagine my surprise when I found out you were living in Alaska where it's warm and sunny all the time. Now that the cats out of the bag, you'll have to move!

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    4. Can we put the cat *in* a bag??? =PPP

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    5. Yes we can. And then fill it with concrete and throw it in the ocean.

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    6. Bah the cat just has to release a fart and the bag will rot, all will be fine for the feline. So go play with your polar bears and your moose up there in Alaska.

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    7. My polar bears and my moose are training with my snapping turtle...we will be rallying against you, you evil cat!

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    8. Good thing I have the fat of the viking woman by my side.

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    9. She'll be eaten by my polar bear...although will they be able to chew through??

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  6. Be safe and secure! I hope Sandy doesn't damage your house as she blows by.

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    1. Thank you, Debra!! Fingers and toes are crossed!!

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  7. Well I hope you stay safe Elsie. There are plenty of things we can't stop, but with the right preparation we can see them through, and lessen the damage and ensure that we come out as okay as we could have. I'm surprised it took you so long to realise as it IS part of the serenity prayer to have the wisdom to know the things you can't change :) I'm glad you have all the help you need though. Those people are there for you, as you are for them.

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    1. We are doing well so far, Mark. The storm is still making it's way here, slowly. Stupid thing, taking it's time. Electric is holding up fine in my neighborhood but not in some others, the poor people.

      Ah, but accepting the things we cannot change - that's the biggie. For me, I want to change everything thing, that's the "control" part of me. Those people I can reach out to have made a huge difference! I'm so grateful for them.

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  8. I will be thinking of you and all our friends who are in the area, Elsie, hope everything will be fine and that Sandy will be a nice lady and not a horrid witch :(

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    1. Thank you, Dezz! Witches are for Halloween, not Football Sunday!

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    1. They just said on the news the worst of it will be the next 12 hours...then the threat will begin to lessen for us and begin for those farther up north.

      Good luck you guys!

      Thanks, Angry!

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  10. I hope everything's all still in one piece Elsie, I hope you are yours are all kept safe.

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    1. All in one piece still. School just got cancelled so Peanut is happy as can be! Thanks, Ray!!

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  11. I hope you and yours are safe Elsie ~ Our preparations can only do so much, you are right ~

    After your country, the storm is coming our way during the mid week ~ Yikes, I hope it will be weaker by then ~

    Take care ~

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    1. I am keeping an eye on your country, one person in particular because as much as I give him a hard time, he holds a special place in my heart. Just don't tell him.

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  12. Hopefully you have power long enough to see this. You are like the fifth of my follow-ees facing this diaster. "Keep yer head down and stay safe" is what I've said to all of them.

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    1. I didn't but I do now LOL Thanks, CW We are out of the worst of the rain and are just finishing up with the shift in winds and potential flooding. I think we should be fine. We were flooded in last night but we should be clear soon.

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  13. OMY dear Elsie hope you be OK, and have power and the torment dont be so hard!! I willpray for you and family especialy today!! hugsss
    I have porblems in my blogs I cannot comment yes the reply dont work:( Thanks by your sweet comment!
    take care dear!!

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    1. I can't believe your replies aren't working! Mine do that sometimes and I have to log out and log back in for it to work. Silly Blogger.

      We lost power at the start of my football game. It's back now and I'm glad cause the temperature dropped - brrr!!

      We were flooded in last night but I think we are okay now. Hubby will take his truck out later and do some recon to make sure =)

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  14. It's great that you've evolved. It's at times like with these storms that we realize what we have, that we learn to be grateful, I think.. I hope it won't/hasn't affected you too severely.

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    1. Isn't it funny how our minds connect two things that don't seem related together? Things like this always do make us take self inventory. We are doing much better now that the power is back on and we are wait for the final wind shift to be over and all will be good!

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  15. good luck with the storm!
    I needed this thought today...powerless. It's a word I fight, cause really, who likes to feel powerless to something? I find myself trying to control the uncontrollable.

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    1. It is a word I fought for so long and when I began S-Anon I lied to myself saying I was going for my hyper vigilance and to meet woman who knew what I was going through - it was just another way of saying I was powerless. Now, that word control...I still have problems with that one from time to time LOL

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  16. Keep safe love - as a South African, we have no experience of this kind of storm! Sherbert, if its anything less than 15 degrees, we start to freak LOL

    So keep safe;-)

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    1. Thank you Xena! They just mentioned the word snow in the forecast for tonight. WTH?? LOL

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  17. I hope you,Devin, and Peanut are safe. You are in my prayers. I loved the 2nd part of the book and as always you have my vote.

    Love
    Meemaw

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    1. Awww, my Meemaw!!! You are so awesome! Thank you for voting! As I sit here and do the comments the forecast for us keeps changing so I don't know what is going on. LOL I know we are in a lull for a bit and it will pick up again this afternoon. Thank you!

      xoxoxo

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  18. All I kept hearing was the term Frankenstorm and I thought, "Well that's a stupid name" and didn't give it much of a second thought. After I actually read up about it... holy crap, this is major stuff. What I'm reading says it's supposed to hit tonight, so be careful and keep us updated. We're all praying for your safety.

    If all else fails, ride the turtle to safety! She can swim!

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    1. Thanks, Bryan! I took the turtle out for a test spin last night and she served me well. She lead our family well through the driving wind and rain and made us stop before we got to far into the flood waters. Good snapping turtle, good!

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  19. I 've been through quite a few hurricanes when I lived in Florida a sense of excitement with fear. Having one hit dead center is quite amazing. I know all don't share my view but they would CLEAR all of the beer and liquor out of the grocery stores.

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    1. Trust me, there was no water or beer to be found on the shelves and I'll bet if I went looking for cigarettes, those would be difficult to find too! It's amazing what people "need" to make it through a storm. There are already stories of people rowing down their flooded streets to get God knows where LOL

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    2. On the upside, with the power out, people are forced to actually talk to each other and commune outside and share their beer and liquor and grill all their food as it would spoil. So it was always like a huge block party. Some cases though were really sad but it always brings out the best in people.

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    3. It's so true, once the storm passes, it's like a huge block party. Amazing how close these things make people.

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