Saturday, April 28, 2012

Elsie's Eyes





Eyes open with optimistic hope


Eyes close with hardened reality 


Eyes open with simple innocence


Eyes close with earned guilt


Eyes open with new found surety


Eyes close with new found confusion


Eyes open when a new path was found


Eyes close when when a second path was opened


Eyes cry rivers of happiness


Eyes cry rivers of pain

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  1. life is all in these opposites....

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    1. I am finding this out, slowly but surely...

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    3. I learned this when I realized that the ones who always smile are usually the saddest within, that the ones who give the most usually receive the least, that the ones who always help others usually yearn for help themselves, that the ones who always cheer others up usually have deep sadness in them, that the ones who love the most are usually loved the least, that the ones who own less usually give more and vice versa..... life is all a big paradox, Elsie.

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    4. You leave me speechless, Dez. Your insight into things is so clear, so deep and so meaningful. You truly are an amazing man and I always cherish your words of wisdom. Thank you. {{hugs}}

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    5. I should write a book, right? :))

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    6. You know...that's not a bad idea! A self help book =) We'll call you Dr. Dez!!!!

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    7. Look at Dez going all Dr. Phil. I think I need to go pop a pill.

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    8. I agree, Dezz. That was very insightful and kind.

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    9. @Cat
      I didn't know you were on contraceptive pills, cat!

      @Randy
      thanks! Means a lot to me!

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  2. It's a roller coaster of emotions your on luv. Just hang on and things will level out. We're here if you need us.

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    1. The song Bother from Stone Sour is once more circling in my brain. I'm hanging strong though.

      Thank you so much for the post you did for me today.

      http://fortwitter.blogspot.com/

      it means the world!! You are the such a good friend, Anne.

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    2. It was amazing how both of our poems ended up having such an identical theme. We are synched up in some way Elsie, you and I.

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    3. It was crazy strange!!!! Again, I can't help but look back upon my tale of from my Naked Truth post about God showing signs and being able to see them. Wild!!!!

      Hmmmm, I am adopted...maybe you're my secret sister and I'm really Irish..although I'm not blonde. Dang!

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  3. You know I've always liked that eye, Elsie. Very beautiful, bitter sweet poem.

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    1. They eye made it's sneak peek performance. Thank you, Barfly!

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  4. Eyes also see the beauty that life still has to offer. Hang in there girl!

    Btw...check your email.

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    1. You're so right, Dan. They do see the beauty; it's why I was all over your blog last night - hope.

      Email checked - response pending - give me a bit to um...compose myself after reading Anne's blog...

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    2. Just seen Anne's blog... God bless that woman and God bless you! God bless all of us! We are all blessed to have found each other!

      Keep God in your life and there will always be hope. He has the power to mend a broken heart. I will be hoping you find peace.

      Take all the time you need to compose yourself. I will be here when you need me!

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    3. Dan, I know you understand when I say, I've sought God's counsel more the last two weeks than I have in months. He's probably getting tired of hearing my whiney nasally voice, not to mention the Serenity Prayer!

      I cannot tell you how grateful I am that we all found each other - we have a fabulous blogging community here - you guys all rock!

      Time for you to check your email!!

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    4. I'm happy that we all have found each other on here and it's amazing how the chain of one to another worked out. God never tires of hearing from us Elsie. He's the one constant in the universe. Take your troubles to him and seek shelter and give you water to quench your thirst where there is none.

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    5. I'm hesitant to put this out there, Anne - but eh, like a wise person once told me - it's a "live" journal - God has shown me much this weekend. Through my open eyes and through my closed eyes, He has been listening. You're right. He's not tired of me, He's showing me the way.

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  5. Be strong. Everything will work out in the the end.

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    1. I think it will YDB....I think it will...

      I hope that your weekend is going better. Hugs to you.

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  6. The eyes have it... Good luck - if that is the right thing to say in the circumstances

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    1. As long as you didn't tell me to get bent - you're good, Furtheron!! Thank you!

      BTW - LOVED the pics of your gig!!!!! Rock on!!!

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  7. Kahlil Gibran said that they eyes are the windows to the soul, and I so believe this. Right now we see your pain and the longing for hope, so beautifully written in this poem. There will come a time when your eyes will look back and see all that has transpired, and you will smile on what your life has at long last become. I promise that will happen, God will guide you home! Hugs!

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    1. I believe that the eyes are windows to the soul too. If nothing, this time, this last two weeks, has taught me many things about me, about Devin and about what I need to do to improve MYSELF. God is holding me close; I need to remember that, always. Thank you, Josie!!!!

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  8. So many emotions Lovey . . . And you're doing so well at working through them and recognising the things that need to be faced. Can you imagine going through this if you didn't write? . . . No, me neither.
    You're honest and brave and that will get you through, along with God of course. Warm thoughts and hugs from cold UK x x x

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    1. I love this blog, someone told me recently it is like my living journal and they were so right!! It really is; I'd be lost without it and without you guys.

      xoxox my Lovey!!! ***from the rainy US

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  9. So much of life can be like a light switch turned on and off with ease. Sometimes we can control it sometimes it controls us but it surely occurs whether we like/want it to or not.

    Watch all the blinking someone may mistake it for winking and get the wrong idea..haha

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    1. You're right Pat, and it was this weekend I decided to calm the storm of my brain, be rational and take control of the uncontrollable - or at least the parts that I could.

      **You mean, that hot guy at the store wasn't winking at me? Drats!!

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    2. haha well it depends if you were doing the blinking first. If so you could have been winking back at your blinking. So confusing.

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  10. Someone once told me you need to close your eyes and listen to whoever is talking to you. That way you can find out so much more about that person than when you're actually looking at them.

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    1. Really? I'll have to try that because I always figured it was the opposite. I look for the tell tale signs of lying - eye shifts, inability to maintain eye contact...hmmm....

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    2. Body language tells you whether you like a person yes or no, whether they're lying yes or no, it's true. But when you're with someone you are getting close to, closing the eyes and just listening is a different experience altogether. You hear things without being distracted by what that someone looks like - no luring smile to distract you, no smart suit to disguise what is being said. Oh well, women can do two things at the same time...

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    3. aaahhh, watching out for the ol' dragon smile and Armani suit to Armani suit to distract you from the actual words and the tone of the voice. Good counter point, Randy!

      BTW - how do you bold? I'm envious!

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  11. Hello Elsie, just wanted to tell you that I watched Bridesmaids the other day (you had suggested it) and absolutely loved it! I thought the movie was good in general - but found Melissa McCarthy to be a genius in it! She made me laugh so much and, in my opinion, was definitely the star that made the movie something special.

    Thanks for bringing it to my attention :-)

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    1. Hooray!!!! I'm so happy you liked it!!!! Seriously, hands down my favorite comedy...until you mention another one. LOL No, really, it is my fav. And, I'm with you, McCarthy had me rolling. Especially the scene on the plane - oh, my, gosh! BTW, a bit of trivia - that is her real husband - how fun is that???

      Thanks for letting me know you liked it =)

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    3. Bozo,

      Sorry I had to remove your comment. I know your intentions were pure and you were only trying to help one of your fellow bloggers.

      However, I felt plugging your friend's blog on here with that title in the theme of my blog, especially on a post such as painful as this one, was blurring the line for some of my regular followers. Not all of my followers make themselves known and remain private because of the pain and hurt sex addiction brings into our lives.

      I hope you understand. Thanks! =)

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